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@ -40,11 +40,11 @@ Ioan held back enough to let Douglas take the lead, falling in step with Debarre
"Yeah."
He thought for a bit, then shrugged. "Bothers, yes, but that's really about it. Helps that I usually just quit and merge down with #Tracker, so it's not like I've got *just* the relationship to worry about. I've got my own stuff going on besides him, and other relationships that merge in every now and then."
He thought for a bit, then shrugged. "Bothers, yeah, but that's really about it. Helps that I usually just quit and merge down with #Tracker, so it's not like I've got *just* the relationship to worry about. I've got my own stuff going on besides him, and other relationships that merge in every now and then."
"That sounds handy, at least."
"His overflowing is also way less dramatic than May's, which sounds pretty painful to watch."
"His overflowing is also way less dramatic than May Then My Name's, which sounds pretty painful to watch."
Ioan nodded.
@ -52,9 +52,9 @@ Ioan nodded.
Ey shrugged. "I asked, it's alright."
Once they were all inside and Debarre had cooled off, Douglas asked, "So what do you think of all this?"
Once they were all inside and Debarre had cooled off, Douglas asked, "So what do you think about all this?"
"'All this'?" He laughed. "Way too fucking much to say one way or another. Narrow it down."
"'All this'?" He laughed. "Way too fucking much to say one way or another. Narrow it down?"
"Oh, I meant the stuff with End Waking merging down. I'm still stuck on May asking him to do that without talking it through with True Name, first."
@ -78,11 +78,15 @@ They laughed.
Ioan furrowed eir brow. "Really?
"Yeah. That she collapsed made me confront the fact that, no, I don't really want her dead or anything, that I really would hate to lose her. Even if she's not the part of my friend I like the most, not a part that I even remember seeing before, she's still *a* part of them." He hesitated, then added, "And it changed E.W. Not the forking and merging itself, but that he even did that. It sounds like May Then My Name used the fact that True Name was all worked up to force her to accept the whole merge all at once. She kind of did the same with E.W. I don't know what her message, was, but it looked like it scared the shit out of him, so he kind of did it without really thinking. He's been a bit different since."
"Yeah. That she collapsed made me confront the fact that, no, I don't really want her dead or anything, that I really would hate to lose her. Even if she's not the part of my friend I like the most, not a part that I even remember seeing before, she's still *a* part of them." He hesitated, then added, "And it changed E.W. Not the forking and merging itself, but that he even did that. It sounds like May Then My Name used the fact that True Name was all worked up to force her to accept the whole merge all at once. She kind of did the same with E.W. I don't know what her message, was, but it looked like it scared the shit out of him, so he kind of did it without really thinking. They'd been talking about about Zacharias the last few days."
"Since her and True Name's conversation about him?"
"Now that you mention it, yeah. He's been a bit different since."
"Different how?" Douglas asked.
"Like...still all worried, and still a little in shock, but also like a little bit of a load was taken off. You heard him, he even said he's worried for her. I can't explain it, and we never really talked it through. It's not bad, but I can still tell."
"Like...still all worried, and still a little in shock, but also like a little bit of a load was taken off. He's been a bit lighter. Silly, even. You heard him, though. He even said he's worried for her. I can't explain it, and we never really talked it through. It's not bad, but I can still tell."
Ioan nodded and rubbed eir palms against the legs of eir slacks as ey always seemed to do during stressful conversations. "He did seem a bit freer of speech today," ey mused. "But that makes sense. He finally got to tell her how he feels, and they didn't even have to talk to each other."
@ -110,19 +114,19 @@ They laughed.
"It's so hard to actually internalize. I'll catch myself trying to mend May and True Name's relationship or make May feel better or whatever, and I'll have to force myself to relax."
"It's not a bad thing," Debarre said. "I mean, you still shouldn't do that, but it's at least a sign that you're just a good person who wants to do right by eir friends."
"It's not a bad thing," Debarre said. "I mean, you still shouldn't do that all the time, but it's at least a sign that you're just a good person who wants to do right by eir friends."
Ey smiled gratefully. "I'm at least trying. One more question, then I think I need to table the topic for a bit."
Ey smiled gratefully. "I'm at least trying. May's done her own fair share of trying to fix others' problems, but that fits her M.O. One more question, then I think I need to table the topic for a bit."
"Sure."
"Do you think it was the right thing to do?"
"Yeah," he said, surprising himself with how readily the answer came to him. "I don't think it would have worked if E.W. had just merged down without all the other dramatic shit. I think she would've just rejected it, or if she did accept the merge, just cherry-picked parts of it. As it is, though, with Jonas after her neck and May using all her wiles to convince both her and E.W., I think so. I don't honestly see her coming out of this still in power or whatever, but if she *does* make it out, I think it'll help her move on."
"Yeah," he said, surprising himself with how readily the answer came to him. "I don't think it would have worked if E.W. had just merged down without all the other dramatic shit. I think she would've just rejected it, or if she did accept the merge, just cherry-picked parts of it. As it is, though, with Jonas after her neck and May Then My Name using all her wiles to convince both her and E.W., I think so, though she probably would've preferred to fork first. I don't honestly see her coming out of this still in power or whatever, but if she *does* make it out, I think it'll help her move on."
Ioan stared up at the ceiling thoughtfully, occasionally mumbling to emself.
He shrugged to Douglas and asked, "Well, I skipped breakfast and am not ready to merge back down yet. Want some food? That'll at least be more pleasant."
He shrugged to Douglas and asked, "Well, I skipped breakfast and I'm not ready to merge back down yet. Want some food? That'll at least be more pleasant."
After another hour's conversation over lunch --- much happier conversation, thankfully --- Debarre stepped back to his home sim and quit to let #Tracker catch up on the current happenings.