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Madison Scott-Clary 2023-06-15 00:15:06 -07:00
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## Blind Strife ## Blind Strife
((Struggling against expectations versus desires esp re: feeling like I deserve to take up space)) ((Struggling against expectations versus desires esp re: feeling like I deserve to take up space))
((Justification through external sources))

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Is asking so many questions just feeding into that anxiety? Is asking so many questions just feeding into that anxiety?
> For we, when we feel, evaporate. Oh,
> we breathe ourselves out and away. From ember to fading ember,
> we give off a fainter scent. Oh, someone may tell us:
> You get in my blood, this room, the springtime,
> is filled with you...\footnote{\parencite[23]{duino}}
I have recently had several conversations about this, about how much space I take up. Almost all of them take place over text, too, as they often come with a worry that synchronous communication might be too much of a demand. Some of them take place between my partners and I speaking frankly about how we interact with each other. Others take place between other versions of me, characters I role play or those that I write, each expressing their own anxiety.
Over the years, I have thankfully fallen out of the habit of asking whether or not I am a burden.
((How much space I take up)) ((How much space I take up))