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%title Limerent Object (WT)
:short-story:fiction:sawtooth:furry:
For RAWR, a [prequel](discernment)
### Brief outline
* [o] The slow formation of a crush
* [o] Falling for anyone who's the slightest bit nice to you
* [o] Intolerable limerence
* [o] Limerence as unwanted emotional attraction
* [o] pining
* [o] dreaming about just being close, casual affection, etc
* [o] Not wanting to talk about it b/c afraid of coercion
* [o] Just try to be the best person you can be for them
* [.] Except that just makes it all the more intense
* [ ] Crisis point and denouement
* [ ] Bounce off each other at some point and the limerence starts to fade
* [ ] Picture what would have happened had they gotten together.
Told in the form of journal entries after long online conversations, complete with snippets
Goal: 40-50k words
(why leave seminary: with church heading toward tending only to the members of the church, Dee felt as though he was leaving behind large swaths of people)
(why the sense of duty and control: old-fashioned family of blue-collar coyotes - domestic animals being royalty, remember - pushed hard to lift him up)
### Characters
* Dewí "Dee" Kimana
* Coyote guy
* Psychologist
* Raised very religious
* Has a crush on...
* Kay
* Coyote gal
* Music grad student at UI Boise
* Transferred after a year, met in the last few weeks of shared class
* Not religious, and the thing that they bounce off each other on down the line is her refusal to not demonize religion
* Jeremy
* Dee's therapist
* Encourages Dee to start journaling as a way to work through these new emotions
* Rev. Dr. Borenson
* Saint Bernard
* Dee's old advisor at St John's university
## Story
* [o] [Starting to journal](10)
* [o] [Liminal spaces and history](20)
* [o] [A sudden memory](21)
* [o] [Early crush](30)
* [o] [A dream](40)
* [o] [Leaving seminary vs liking Kay](50)
* [o] [Dee chickens out](60)
* [o] [Confession](61)
* [o] [Projection](70)
* [.] [Egodystonic attraction](71)
* [ ] [Calling Borenson](81)
* [ ] [Talking with God](90)
* [ ]
* [.] [The conversation](xx)
* [ ] What would have happened
* [ ] Talking with God again
### Todo
* [ ] Include more Job/Ecclesiastes-type thoughts
* [ ] Quote scripture?
* [ ] Integrate prequel in Dee's words
* [ ] Flesh out between current chapters.
* [ ] Takes place around July 14, feast of St Kateri Tekakwitha
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