49 lines
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49 lines
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date: 2019-09-10
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weight: 22
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My turn.
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> Shoot.
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Why ask this now? Why ask about the core instead of a side quest?
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> I did. I asked about TS.
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Don't deflect.
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> Okay.
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Why ask about the project? Why ask about yourself?
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> You had job interviews. You had the convention. You're visiting Barac. You stopped writing for a bit.
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I started again, didn't I?
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> Yes. Hypomania is fading into the comfortable static of a ground state, though. You're **still** writing. That's why I'm asking. Why are you writing this if you're not hypomanic?
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I wrote a bunch of *Restless Town* when I wasn't hypomanic.
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> Yes.
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I wrote some of *Rum and Coke* when I wasn't hypomanic.
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> It shows, in the last one.
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I've grown as a writer. I've grown as a person. I can continue projects whose inception lay in hypomania.
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> And yet you say that you know a thing is right if you feel the same when depressed as when hypomanic. You can tell a decision is worth making if something other than strange energies birthed it.
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Yes.
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> Did strange energies not birth me?
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I don't know. Maybe. I don't think they birthed this project, though. I think this project is...hmm.
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> An honest one? A true one? A worthwhile one?
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Sort of.
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Maybe I think it's an earnest one. One that was borne out of a real desire, birthed by a need beyond what might be imbued by hypomania. A more grounded need, not one based in those non-Newtonian laws that govern that other space, where mechanics break down and strange energies spring, palladial, into being.
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