<p>Christ… I got so depressed just leaving to go get my bags scanned. Shan and I had just had an awkward and brief goodbye, though I’d been clinging to him all day at the apartment, so I guess I wasn’t really prepared to be.. saddened by going home. I’ve been reading almost continuously since then just to keep myself distracted from this. It really sucks.. I’m thinking of giving him a call when I get to the airport, though I’m not sure what good it would do.</p>