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<p><span class="tag">diary</span> <span class="tag">livejournal</span> <span class="tag">fossils</span></p>
<details text="A talk with Whitcomb"><summary>A talk with Whitcomb</summary>
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<p><whitcomb> the purpose of those memes is to cave in to peer pressure and tell people who they were o.o
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<ranna> I&rsquo;ll get to that eventually.
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<ranna> ^^
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<ranna> No, you&rsquo;re not the moodswings one.
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<ranna> And I just gave away, yes, you are on there.
<whitcomb> Hee.
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<whitcomb> i&rsquo;m posting one soon
<ranna> Some don&rsquo;t matter to you.  The Arf one is my stalker, who follows me around campus like a puppy.  The oppressed one is this girl I&rsquo;m friends with who is angry and hates everyone.  The one about straight boys is a straight boy I had a crush on.  The weird me out one is some zoophile friend.
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<ranna> That should narrow it some.
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* Whitcomb nods. I&hellip; assumed, or hoped, I wasn&rsquo;t the straight one.
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<ranna> Hehe
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<whitcomb> I&rsquo;m getting the feeling I&rsquo;m one of the &ldquo;we don&rsquo;t talk&rdquo; ones, right?
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<ranna> Well, moodswings is Terberlo.
<ranna> Oh, I suck at this.
* Whitcomb muahaha!
<whitcomb> These things make me OCD as hell
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<ranna> You&rsquo;re the second one.  We seem to be different from each other in strategic ways that would, I think, make a relationship between us rather.. messy.
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<whitcomb> Oh.
<whitcomb> Hahaha.
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<whitcomb> We both need &lsquo;balancer&rsquo; mates.
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<ranna> Yeah.
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<whitcomb> The two of us together would be &ldquo;I&rsquo;M SAD!&rdquo; &ldquo;I&rsquo;M ANGRY!&rdquo; &ldquo;GYAAAAAARGH!&rdquo;
<ranna> Or we&rsquo;d be excelent up until even a slightly destructive mood came over both of us at the same time, and we&rsquo;d go spiralling out of control.
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<whitcomb> You get those too?
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<whitcomb> I mean, I knew you did, but often enough to&hellip;
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<whitcomb> Wait, chaos, Eris, so on.
<ranna> HEh
<whitcomb> Of course you do.
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<ranna> Yeah, they happen.  Even if only for a few seconds, and I never do anything, it&rsquo;s still there.
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<whitcomb> Yeah, Shiva is to me what Eris is to you. 
<whitcomb> Is or was.
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<ranna> Hmm.. dunno if any of the others are pertinent.  Shan is &lsquo;I knew you too well&rsquo;&hellip;
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<whitcomb> We really are a lot alike in odd ways. o.o
<ranna> How so?
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<whitcomb> Um, just the&hellip; Uh&hellip; mythology, science, latin, shiny things, chaos, getting way too worked up about things, so on.
<whitcomb> Oddly, the one I was was one I wouldn&rsquo;t have thought.
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<ranna> Heh, I tried to be kinda.. roundabout?  Something.
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<ranna> I tried to think of something I wouldn&rsquo;t normally think of for the person, but was still true.
<ranna> Except for Rikoshi.  He&rsquo;s the first.
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<whitcomb> God, I love Rikky.
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<whitcomb> He&rsquo;s so oblivious sometimes.
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<ranna> Hee.
<whitcomb> We used to be kind of like you and he are now, but then I admitted one night while drunk that I had a huge crush on him and things are different now.
<ranna> Did  that change things on his side, or your side? Or both..?
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<whitcomb> I think both, or maybe just his, or maybe just mine.  In other words, I don&rsquo;t know.
<whitcomb> I&rsquo;m just paranoid.  Maybe they&rsquo;re still the same.
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<ranna> Oh.
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<ranna> That&rsquo;s why I&rsquo;m afraid to tell people I like them.
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<ranna> Or some people.
<whitcomb> I tell everyone.  It has thus far proved a bad idea.
<ranna> It always seems like a good idea right up until you actually do it.
<ranna> The only time it ever worked out well in any way was - oh em teh gee - Shanerak.
<ranna> But I guilt-tripped him into the relationship ^^
<whitcomb> Hahahah
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<ranna> I hate to sound like I&rsquo;m obsessing, I don&rsquo;t feel like I am o.O
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<whitcomb> You loved him
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<whitcomb> It doesn&rsquo;t go away, I guess.
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<whitcomb> I fear.
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<whitcomb> The sad thing about &lsquo;balancers&rsquo; is that I love them the most and yet get bored. 
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<ranna> Hehe
<whitcomb> So, er, how did you mean get together?
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<ranna> What I meant was that, I really was obsessing over him a few days ago, but ever since I saw that he really was kinda of a dick, it&rsquo;s a whole lot easier not to think about him.
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<ranna> Oh.
<ranna> I was with this guy Merlin because he typefucked me once and liked it.
<ranna> He was with this guy.. um.. fuck.  F-something.
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<ranna> Anyway, I had a crush on him and told him, and it was all cute for a day or too, but then I got horribly depressed &lsquo;cause things weren&rsquo;t all working out for me.
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<ranna> After about a week, I dumped Merlin and he dumped wotsisface, and I thought thigns were going to turn around.
<ranna> Until he got together with Merlin ^^
<whitcomb> Uh
<whitcomb> I, uh
<whitcomb> Yeah o.o
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<ranna> I misread, didn&rsquo;t I.
<ranna> Well, there&rsquo;s the story.
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<whitcomb> Kindayeah.  o.o
<ranna> But yeah, I just saw that :o)
<ranna> What do you mean, then?
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<whitcomb> haha
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<whitcomb> Er, just what you meant by &lsquo;get together&rsquo; re: me
<whitcomb> Not trying to sound weird, because I think we&rsquo;ve both kind of&hellip; moved apart, just curious as to that because I am pathetic
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<ranna> You mean, like the statement about you?
<whitcomb> Yuh
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<ranna> I don&rsquo;t know,  I guess I meant it like it sounds, like mates and stuff.  I was just thinking about just how we&rsquo;re different.
<ranna> &lsquo;cause we were talking right before I wrote that.
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<ranna> Earlier today.
<whitcomb> Oh, OK ^_^
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<whitcomb> Sorry, I&rsquo;m a sap
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<ranna> How so?
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<whitcomb> Because I was hoping that was what you meant, because I&rsquo;m neeeeeedy
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<ranna> Hehe, well, yeah. :o)
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<ranna> I make a point to myself about trying to focus on everybody a lot of times, but I always end up focusing on relationships with just one person.  Dangers, &lsquo;cause I flit around so much.
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<ranna> Er.. dangerous.
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<whitcomb> Same.  I love people, but I get bored so easily.  It&rsquo;s fucking heartbreaking.
<ranna> Maybe it&rsquo;s not that we&rsquo;re too different, maybe we&rsquo;re just the same in the wrong sorts of ways.
<whitcomb> Yeah.  That&rsquo;s my thought.
<whitcomb> I think we&rsquo;d probably spend a lot of time staring at each other silently and not saying anything.
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<whitcomb> And being redundant.  GG.
<whitcomb> Plus, I find the incidental shit about you a lot more interesting than you do, probably.
<ranna> Hmm?  Like what?
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<ranna> I&rsquo;d like a relationship where I could be silent with someone and not have it be weird.  I could be silent around Shan last time I visited, but that&rsquo;s because he spent a lot of time talking in #sanefurs :o)
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<whitcomb> Ick.
<ranna> It was like visiting Wish and Nitro, then staying in Carlsbad for a few extra days.
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<whitcomb> I&rsquo;ve gotten to the point where if someone ignores me for the computer I just give &lsquo;em the &ldquo;fuck off&rdquo; attitude.
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<whitcomb> :/
<ranna> Heh.
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<whitcomb> My mom did that shit all the time, I&rsquo;d try to talk to her when something really irrelevant was on TV and she&rsquo;d shush me.
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<ranna> Ur, yeah.
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<whitcomb> I&rsquo;m like, &ldquo;Uh, yeah, sorry for trying to patch up our strained communication, I&rsquo;ll leave now&rdquo;
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<ranna> Hehehe
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<ranna> I did that to my mom lots, but every time she&rsquo;d come home, I&rsquo;d start feeling bad.
<whitcomb> Um, incidental, like I would make far too much of your racial heritage and your dad&rsquo;s drug use and your mom&rsquo;s hippyism and&hellip; I don&rsquo;t know.
<ranna> Yeah, I think after I told you all the stores I could remember, I&rsquo;d get a little bored by it. :o)
* Whitcomb nods. Same here. I didn&rsquo;t really understand until recently how recounting your life history gets annoying after a while.
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<whitcomb> Because, much to my surprise, I am not the most interesting person in the world.  &lt;:)
<ranna> Hee.
<whitcomb> OK, so I can ask you something utterly retarded and you not take offense?
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<ranna> I occasionally find myself talking about me, realize I&rsquo;m boring as fuck, and then shut up.  Makes the middle of the conversation weird.
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<ranna> Go ahead.,
<whitcomb> Hahaha.
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<whitcomb> OK, well, because you&rsquo;re the, er&hellip; blackest person I am this close to, would you say that that small portion of your genetic makeup has affected your life at all?
<ranna> Unless it has anything to do with my penis size, no.  African American Student Services likes to bug me about it, but really, I&rsquo;m pretty damn white.  All of the other parts of me are the tight-ass white type, so I think it might cancel out anything black about me.
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* Whitcomb nods.
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<whitcomb> Race is such a weird thing, that you just&hellip; don&rsquo;t talk about.
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<ranna> I know. c.c
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<whitcomb> I used to bug all of my &lsquo;ethnic&rsquo; friends about it until I realized that if they were my friends then they were probably not the type to give a shit about race.
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<ranna> I was brought up in exceedingly white environments, so coming to college with a whole lot of black people was kinda.. strange.  Made me feel awkward and socially inept around them.
<ranna> Hey, will you be on later?
<whitcomb> Yep
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<ranna> We should talk more then, &lsquo;cause this is cool.  Gotta go to some stupid frat meeting now.</ranna></whitcomb></ranna></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></whitcomb></ranna></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></ranna></whitcomb></whitcomb></whitcomb></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></ranna></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></whitcomb></ranna></ranna></ranna></whitcomb></ranna></whitcomb></whitcomb>&lt;/whitcomb</p>
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