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<p>“You talk about those two facets like different people,” Ioan said. “Sorry, not to derail. Just that I noticed that. None of the Odists do.”</p>
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<p>“Most, maybe. I picked it up from Hammered Silver, who spent probably more time with them than anyone. All her instances feel singular, I imagine, but they were two instances in one. Sasha was this really emotional, really caring person. It wasn’t that Michelle wasn’t, just that when she was at the fore, she was much more…I don’t know. Logical? Rational?”</p>
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<p>“And when it was both? When she was in flux, or whatever?”</p>
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<p>“Then she was just tired,” he said, grinning at memories. “But right, before I totally lose track, you asked how I feel. Uh, I guess I feel scared.”</p>
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<p>“Then she was just tired,” he said, smiling at memories. “But right, before I totally lose track, you asked how I feel. Uh, I guess I feel scared.”</p>
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<p>Ioan furrowed eir brow. “Really?</p>
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<p>“Yeah. That she collapsed made me confront the fact that, no, I don’t really want her dead or anything, that I really would hate to lose her. Even if she’s not the part of my friend I like the most, not a part that I even remember seeing before, she’s still <em>a</em> part of them.” He hesitated, then added, “And it changed E.W. Not the forking and merging itself, but that he even did that. It sounds like May Then My Name used the fact that True Name was all worked up to force her to accept the whole merge all at once. She kind of did the same with E.W. I don’t know what her message, was, but it looked like it scared the shit out of him, so he kind of did it without really thinking. He’s been a bit different since.”</p>
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<p>“Different how?” Douglas asked.</p>
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<p>“Like…still all worried, and still a little in shock, but also like a little bit of a load was taken off. I can’t explain it, and we never really talked it through. It’s not bad, but I can still tell.”</p>
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<p>“Like…still all worried, and still a little in shock, but also like a little bit of a load was taken off. You heard him, he even said he’s worried for her. I can’t explain it, and we never really talked it through. It’s not bad, but I can still tell.”</p>
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<p>Ioan nodded and rubbed eir palms against the legs of eir slacks as ey always seemed to do during stressful conversations. “He did seem a bit freer of speech today,” ey mused. “But that makes sense. He finally got to tell her how he feels, and they didn’t even have to talk to each other.”</p>
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<p>“Has May Then My Name changed, too?”</p>
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<p>“I can’t tell. She’s been so wrapped up in trying to live around someone she doesn’t really like, and then with all of the fallout from the merge. Maybe she has? She’s at least been able to talk with True Name without blowing up at her, and they’ve even had some conversations that seemed enjoyable at times, so, maybe?”</p>
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<p>Ey smiled gratefully. “I’m at least trying. One more question, then I think I need to table the topic for a bit.”</p>
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<p>“Sure.”</p>
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<p>“Do you think it was the right thing to do?”</p>
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<p>“Yeah,” he said, surprising himself with how readily the answer came to him. “I don’t think it would have worked if E.W. had just merged down without all the other dramatic shit. I think she would’ve just rejected it, or if she did accept the merge, just cherry-picked parts of it. As it is, though, with Jonas after her neck and May using all her whiles to convince both her and E.W., I think so. I don’t honestly see her coming out of this still in power or whatever, but if she <em>does</em> make it out, I think it’ll help her move on.”</p>
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<p>“Yeah,” he said, surprising himself with how readily the answer came to him. “I don’t think it would have worked if E.W. had just merged down without all the other dramatic shit. I think she would’ve just rejected it, or if she did accept the merge, just cherry-picked parts of it. As it is, though, with Jonas after her neck and May using all her wiles to convince both her and E.W., I think so. I don’t honestly see her coming out of this still in power or whatever, but if she <em>does</em> make it out, I think it’ll help her move on.”</p>
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<p>Ioan stared up at the ceiling thoughtfully, occasionally mumbling to emself.</p>
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<p>He shrugged to Douglas and asked, “Well, I skipped breakfast and am not ready to merge back down yet. Want some food? That’ll at least be more pleasant.”</p>
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<p>After another hour’s conversation over lunch — much happier conversation, thankfully — Debarre stepped back to his home sim and quit to let #Tracker catch up on the current happenings.</p>
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<p>He queued up a sensorium message to Yared, user11827, and a few other friends he’d kept in touch with while following along with (and occasionally meddling in) the political affairs of the system. ‘Reactionary elements’ indeed.</p>
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<p>The walk and cry in the field before ey’d joined Douglas at his house had been necessary, but also had only served to highlight just how woefully out of eir depth ey truly was.</p>
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<p>“Hi Sarah,” ey said, starting a simplex sensorium message. “Sorry to bother you, and sorry we haven’t spoken in a few weeks. I know I was vague when I canceled our last appointment, but things have gone completely sideways. I’m not totally sure how open you’d be to this, but can we meet and talk? Even if I’m restricted to talking in very general terms about what’s going on? I need to talk to someone who can help me sort through my thoughts around it, I just can’t share details yet. It has to do with True Name, so I’m sure you can appreciate just how complicated it is. Let me know if that’s alright. I’m…I’m at Douglas’s for a few days. Thanks.”</p>
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<p>Then, ey lay down on the bed, still dressed and over the covers, and stared at the ceiling, trying to think about as little as possible.</p>
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<p>Ey was startled awake by a sensorium message. Grunting and wiping eir hands over eir face to try and bring reality back into focus through the nearly drunken haze of waking up from an ill-advised nap, ey set the message to running.</p>
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<p>Ey was startled awake by a sensorium message. Grunting and wiping eir hands over eir face to try and bring reality back into focus through the drunken haze of waking up from an ill-advised nap, ey set the message to running.</p>
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<p>“Good to hear from you, Ioan. I’ll admit that I was pretty concerned when you canceled. I don’t usually worry about you, but that’s also the first time you’ve had to do so in nearly four years. I can be free whenever you need, and am happy to meet you either there or here. I don’t have any problems holding off on details until a later date. Just let me know.”</p>
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<p>Ey groaned and ground the heels of eir palms against eir closed eyes, trying to will away the grogginess that clung to em, somehow managing to feel both sticky and slippery.</p>
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<p>A quick shower had em feeling well enough to respond, and by the time she arrived, ey had a pot of coffee brewed and met her, mug in hand, at the door.</p>
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<p>Ey bowed. “Thanks for coming on such short notice.”</p>
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<p>She offered em a hug. “It’s alright. I figure if whatever is happening has you both canceling appointments and requesting short-notice ones, it’s probably important.”</p>
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<p>She offered em a hug. “It’s alright. I figure if whatever is happening has all three of you canceling appointments and you requesting short-notice ones, it’s probably important.”</p>
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<p>“Sorry, just woke up, feeling rough,” ey said, declining the hug. “But yeah. Important, overwhelming, dramatic. Would you be alright talking outside? That nap destroyed me and I’m still feeling disconnected from everything.”</p>
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<p>“Works for me.”</p>
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<p>“So, uh…well, where to start.” Ey spoke haltingly, once she’d turned down the offer of coffee and they’d made their way out into the grass and light and blue skies. “Right. As of a few weeks ago, for reasons I can’t get into just yet, True Name has been staying in an extra room we dug at the house. A few days ago–“</p>
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<p>“So, uh…well, where to start.” Ey spoke haltingly, once they’d made their way out into the grass and light and blue skies. “Right. As of a few weeks ago, for reasons I can’t get into just yet, True Name has been staying in an extra room we dug at the house. A few days ago–“</p>
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<p>“Whoa, wait. I know you said no specifics, but can you tell me a little more about that? I can’t picture that working at <em>all</em>“</p>
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<p>Ey sighed. “Yeah, well, that’s part of why I’m here and not at home, I guess.”</p>
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<p>She nodded, gestured for em to continue.</p>
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<p>“Still, I imagine that just having the anxiety of it potentially going rough doesn’t feel good.”</p>
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<p>“Not at all, no. I feel like I’m constantly on guard, always ready to jump in and smooth things out, even if I haven’t really had to do so. I’m trying to let them both just do their own thing, though, and every time I catch myself feeling that way, I try to change contexts.”</p>
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<p>“That’s good,” she said. “Has it been helping, at least?”</p>
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<p>“If you’d asked me that a few days ago, I would have said yes, but now that I’m here and struggling to hold it together, I’m not so sure. I think I was just pushing it down without, I don’t know, redirecting it or dealing with it.”</p>
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<p>“If you’d asked me that a few days ago, I would have said yes, but now that I’m here and struggling to hold it together, I’m not so sure. I think I was just pushing it down without…I don’t know, redirecting it or dealing with it.”</p>
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<p>She nodded. “Alright. I want to come back to that, but I interrupted your overview. Can you tell me what else happened?”</p>
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<p>“Right. So, through some strange turn of events, both True Name and May wound up overflowing at the same time. True Name is staying at another private sim we know and May’s at home while I’m here. All of this hit a few days back when May and True Name had a conversation that left both of them drained, and then True Name had to deal with a merge large enough that she collapsed.”</p>
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<p>“Not May Then My Name…” Sarah murmured, frowning.</p>
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<p>“Do you think she’s envious of that?”</p>
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<p>Ey frowned and scuffed a heel through the grass. “I don’t know, honestly. Again, if you’d asked me a few weeks ago, I would have said probably not, that she’s got her own things that make her happy which don’t involve putting on plays or poking fun at each other. Now, though I’m not so sure. This whole thing about the merge adds another layer onto that, because suddenly, True Name would have all of those memories.”</p>
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<p>“Does it bother you that she would have the memories, or are you worried about her having those emotions? Do you worry she’d start feeling about you the way that May Then My Name does?”</p>
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<p>“Well, shit,” ey groaned. “I didn’t even think about that. Like, we’ve talked about what her having memories of loving me would mean, but always past-tense. I didn’t think about if she herself, she as True Name I mean, would pick those up as well. I have no clue. Maybe on some level I do, though. I like the way May feels about me. We’ve talked about jealousy a few times, and it often comes up that she feels devotion towards me, and I’m really not sure how I’d feel having that come from another, never mind one that I have as complicated a relationship with as I do with True Name.”</p>
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<p>“Well, shit,” ey groaned. “I didn’t even think about that. Like, we’ve talked about what her having memories of loving me would mean, but always past-tense. I didn’t think about if she herself — she as True Name I mean — would pick those up as well. I have no clue. Maybe on some level I do, though. I like the way May feels about me. We’ve talked about jealousy a few times, and it often comes up that she feels devotion towards me, and I’m really not sure how I’d feel having that come from another, never mind one that I have as complicated a relationship with as I do with True Name.”</p>
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<p>“Does this tie in with the complicated feelings you mentioned, then?”</p>
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<p>Ey bought emself some time to think about an answer by bending down to pluck a dandelion, twirling it between eir fingers. “I guess I have to share one detail, which is that there was an attempt on her life back on Secession day.”</p>
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<p>Sarah blinked and stopped up short. “One moment,” she said, then closed her eyes, her lips moving faintly in a non-vocalized sensorium message. Ey politely turned away. Finally, she caught eir attention once more. “I checked in with the instance that’s been meeting with True Name and she said that she received a message from her back on Secession day that sounded really panicked.”</p>
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<p>“Uh, yeah, probably,” ey said. It was only just settling into evening, but the nap still had em out of sorts. “Thank you, though. This was immensely helpful. I don’t think any of us are in a position to hold to a schedule at the moment, given further complicated stuff going on behind the scenes, but I’ll definitely be in touch when I can, and will nudge both of them to do the same.”</p>
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<p>“Ioan.”</p>
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<p>Ey stopped up short, winced. “Right, sorry. Not my job.”</p>
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<p>“Thank you,” she said, grinning. “I’ll touch base with each of them, don’t worry. One more tip before I go: take care of yourself. That whole golden rule thing applies to you, too, you know. Treat others well, but remember you still need to be treated well.”</p>
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<p>“Thank you,” she said, grinning. “I’ll touch base with each of them, don’t worry. One more tip before I go: take care of yourself. That whole golden rule thing applies to you, too, you know. Treat others well, but remember you still need to be treated well, too.”</p>
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<p>“I’ll certainly try.”</p>
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