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<p>She nodded readily. “Yes. That is the source of all this stress for me over the last few days. I want to, it is just the reality that is working against me.”</p>
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<p>“Why?”</p>
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<p>“Why do I want to?” She laughed. “Because I like who I am and I do not like who she is, but that does not mean I do not like what she can become. I want her to be happy and to feel love and to slow the fuck down for five minutes. I do not know for sure, but I strongly suspect that these will only ever be good for her.”</p>
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<p>Ey leaned forward enough to snag one of her paws and give it a squeeze. “Guess we’re of one mind on that, then. Or at least mostly so; you have a better sense as to what goes into the emotional side.”</p>
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<p>She smiled gratefully and gave eir hand a squeeze. “Well, when she returns, we can expand on our thoughts.”</p>
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<p>They didn’t have to wait long.</p>
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<p>Shortly after they went back inside to pull together a snacky sort of lunch, True Name returned from her trip out in the prairie and bowed to them, saying, “I have had some thoughts that I would like to run past you.”</p>
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<p>“As have we,” Ioan said, gesturing her to a chair. “Good timing. What were you thinking?”</p>
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<p>“It is perhaps more for May Then My Name to answer, though I will appreciate both of your input.”</p>
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<p>The skunk nodded for her to continue.</p>
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<p>“You have mentioned in the past that you forked to cement emotional patterns that led to your divergence. I think that I have wound up doing that to some extent, but only ever subconsciously. With how much specificity were you able to pick what it was that you were modifying?”</p>
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<p>May glanced to Ioan, then shrugged. “I worked in very small steps. I forked dozens of times to change very small things. Being deliberate about it made it essentially as fine-grained as I needed.”</p>
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<p>“Alright. That helps quite a lot, actually. I was considering how much I might be able to change without losing who and what I am. If I can change some of my own habits, maybe the end result will still be something that I am happy with, but with enough difference to get Jonas off my back. I am not yet sure what those habits might be, but it is an option, at least. I have been trying to catalogue what it is about myself that can go, as it were.” She smiled wryly, “But yes, doing so deliberately is probably for the best.”</p>
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<p>“That’s actually what we had been talking about,” Ioan said, looking to May for confirmation that it was alright to continue.</p>
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<p>“A deliberate merge,” she said, picking up from where ey’d left off. “One that will keep us comfortable in our privacy while also giving you the opportunity to build up from where you are.”</p>
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<p>“Really? That is not what I was expecting to hear.”</p>
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<p>They both nodded.</p>
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<p>There was a long silence, then. Both May and Ioan watched True Name as she traced the wood-grain on the table with a claw-tip.</p>
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<p>“And you are okay with that, Ioan?”</p>
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<p>Ey nodded. “I think so. I don’t wholly understand the mechanics of it, but you’re the dispersionistas. I trust you two to have that covered.”</p>
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<p>She nodded and looked to May.</p>
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<p>“If you are alright working with me through the process, then I am okay with it.”</p>
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<p>“Are you?” Ioan asked.</p>
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<p>True Name smiled lopsidedly. “So long as I can fork beforehand just in case, why the fuck not? I am already not what I was.”</p>
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<p>May scoffed and shook her head. “‘So long as you can fork’? Jesus, True Name. Of course you can fucking fork. 108 instances with daily reconciliation, and she asks if she can fork.”</p>
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<p>They laughed.</p>
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<p>“Well,” True Name said, shrugging. “Fuck it.”</p>
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