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<h1>Zk | no-way-2-1</h1>
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<p>I feel compelled to state that I do know the <em>reason</em> that I left a pastoral path. That was something that I talked through with my advisor there, and something that I had been struggling with for a while. What I don’t know, necessarily, is the reason that I left St John’s in the way that I did.</p>
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<p>I feel compelled to state that I do know the <em>reason</em> that I left a path to pastoral. That was something that I talked through with my advisor at St John’s, and something that I had been struggling with for a while. I can point to it and name it as the mechanical reason. What I don’t know, necessarily, is the reason why I left there in the way that I did.</p>
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<p>I left my MDiv behind because I do not do well in front of a crowd. Simple as that.</p>
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<p>Put me in front of a person, and I can have a conversation with them<sup id="fnref:goodpsych"><a class="footnote-ref" href="#fn:goodpsych">1</a></sup>. Set me loose in a crowd and I am fine. If you set me down in the middle of the 13th Street Plaza in the middle of the dinner rush or in downtown Boise and watched, I suspect that you would see nothing out of the ordinary.</p>
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<p>I don’t say this to brag. Rather the opposite, actually, The recognition that I do okay on the street in the middle of a crowd because, after a certain point, I cease being able to see the people around me as real people and the weight of their presence no longer weighs on me, and just how <em>low</em> a number that needs to be before I cannot keep up with individuals is embarrassing. Three people I can manage. Four is a stretch. Staff meetings are difficult.</p>
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<p>Drop me on the altar in front of a congregation and expect me to connect not just with the congregation but also with God and I get lost before I can get started. If I were able to focus on just one of these things, if I were able to look out over the heads of the parishioners and see only cardboard cutouts of ears and snouts, moving in time with the liturgy, I would likely be able to do that — I gave my fair share of speeches. If I were able to participate wholly in the divine rite and wrap myself in the mystery of tradition, I would be more than happy — I have my fair share of rituals.</p>
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<p>Drop me on the altar in front of a congregation and expect me to connect not just with the congregation and its constituent parts but also with God and I get lost before I can get started. If I were able to focus on just one of these things, if I were able to look out over the heads of the parishioners and see only cardboard cutouts of ears and snouts, moving in time with the liturgy, I would likely be able to do that — I gave my fair share of speeches. If I were able to participate wholly in the divine rite and wrap myself in the mystery of tradition, I would be more than happy — I have my fair share of rituals.</p>
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<p>But that’s not what mass is. Mass is connecting the congregation to God, and that means being the conduit between the two of them, and that I <em>cannot</em> do.</p>
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<p>I recognized this early on, before even applying for St John’s, and set my mind specifically on powering through this deficiency. I was able to learn so much, could I not learn how to provide communal spiritual interaction?</p>
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<p>Alas, some things are intrinsic and immutable. I left because I recognized this fact. And so, it turns out, did my teachers.</p>
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<p>I have volunteered for the first of these ‘brown-bag lunch presentations’ and am not shy to admit (at least, to myself and Jeremy) that I did so simply to get it out of the way. I have little desire to participate in team-building exercises in the context of an organization that exists solely to facilitate one-on-one interactions in a professional context.</p>
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<p>My thoughts on this whole process are clear, so I shall not complain any further.</p>
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<p>I have decided, it is occupying my mind of late, to talk about discernment and the reasons that I am where I am now and not wearing vestments<sup id="fnref:kaypresentation"><a class="footnote-ref" href="#fn:kaypresentation">1</a></sup>. I already even have the example of my client who is going through his own form of secular discernment.</p>
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<p>I have decided, as it is occupying my mind of late<sup id="fnref:kaypresentation"><a class="footnote-ref" href="#fn:kaypresentation">1</a></sup>, to talk about discernment and the reasons that I am where I am now and not wearing vestments. I already even have the example of my client who is going through his own form of secular discernment.</p>
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<p>To that end, I have been toying with the balance of life story to academic content, and have decided to lean perhaps 80% of my presentation on individual stories (both mine and that of a few anonymized clients), and then set that within the framework of psychology.</p>
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<p>The core idea of what I want to share, I think, is the importance of taking one’s time to make decisions, as well as to understand the unavoidable malleability of those decisions and long-term plans. The things that decide the outcome of long-term decisions may, after all, be long-term problems. You may, for instance, be a stupendously awkward coyote trying to wedge himself into a position of social grace that requires absolute earnestness.</p>
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<p>The core idea of what I want to share, I think, is the importance of taking one’s time to make decisions, as well as to understand the unavoidable malleability of those decisions and long-term plans. The things that decide the outcome of long-term decisions may, after all, be long-term problems. You may, for instance, be a stupendously awkward coyote trying to wedge himself into a position of social grace that requires absolute earnestness and humility.</p>
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<p>I have been collecting notes about my own process of discernment, as well as examples of discernment in others to pull together into this speech:</p>
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<li>The client who is struggling with his choice of what he is majoring in at university.</li>
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<p>One thing that I think I would suggest is that you write this ‘journal essay’ ASAP so that you have enough time to get your thoughts out of the way. You’ve mentioned before how easy it is to get caught up in your own thoughts on something while they evolve in the middle of you trying to share them. Write your presentation, then maybe journal about it some, get all the thoughts out of the way that you can so that you’re not distracting yourself at the front of the room.</p>
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<p>Good luck, buddy!</p>
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<p>Jeremy</p>
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<p>No harm in that, I think. I’ll get those words down and maybe even spend the night before rehearsing them, just to be safe, and then try and make it as fun as possible for myself, and hopefully that will come across to the audience, as well. Might as well try to turn corporate bullshit into something useful for those who have to put up with it.</p>
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